just 4 fun!!!!

                                                                                                                                                                                minah yg control ayu ni nme dye aling + baku..dye ni nk kte comei..x gk..hu8...p comei gk..ye la smpai ade org 2 tehegeh2 nk kt mnh ni..he9..sekali dye kuarkn sebutan SSSS dye...mk datok..kalah ooo bnyi ular kt utan...eee..seram!  when she start 2 talk..besorak ooo kaum baku lam gue..ha9

dak ni nme speka..dye ni jns yg bnyk ckp..p kt skol je r..kt umh dye ni diam je. dye ni bley d`ktekn bnyk mslh gk..nates la tmpt mnh ni luahkn mslh ngre..dye n x r bnyk pmnt...he7 yg pntg skli dye CUN!!! ahakkkssss!..nk tao npe aq tao sal dak ni,coz aq la dak nieyh!!!!

ni tbunk! yg poka dot 2..dye memiliki idong yg sgt antik..aq tabek r tbunk nieyh..pndai jge adk ooo..mne x nye 7 org..bg aq ssa kot...nk tao rhsie nye??..sng je..sekeh je pale adk 2..abs ctew...xde spe ley gnti tbunk..time dye hot mle la tgn dye nk grk..geye swimming!!!  platipus + babunjing!! itulah tbunk!!!

dak yg comey ni nme dye ciai..coemey ke?..hi99  baby face...ske b`gurau..agk la..hi9..sekutu n tbunk..ske kerek n aq..hi9  mmg slalu ckt prot..lam klz sekutu n aq..ho9...ske beno sinchan..aq pon x tao r npe..p habit dye lbey krg je n sinchan 2..hi99

yg snyom x abs2 ni is sella a.k.a agon!! aq syg dye..p dye da pndh skol..mklom r dak pndai..mrsm pengkln ulu..  dye ni antik doe..kering smcm..hi9..msb r de replika skeleton kt skol..ley r aq lps wndu kt mnh nieyh..hi89..2 je la

dak ni nme dye ti@..mmg kuat mkn..hi9..b`were r mknn deowg..hi9..mke dye cm kucg..tol..x tpu..bntg yg plg dye ske kucg r..2 yg jgkt habit n kucg 2..p dye ni kan org mlysie..org pth..hi9..

dak yg nmpk kte sproh ni nme dye onyet..hi8..monyet..dak kerek...ble sawan dye dtg tetibe je la nk pkol aq..plk tol..pe2 pon aq syg dye..len dri yg len..hi99..dak n fanetik sgt n lee min ho..aq pon x ato r..tang mne yg ncem nye mamat 2..ce gtao aq..

dak ni lak nme dye ayon..x nmpk eh dahi dye??..mmg la coz bso sgt..hi99...dye da pndh..teknik..p nk blk rps blk..aq tao npe..coz dye wndu aq..hi9...aq tao..biase r org cun mmg cm ni..hi99

dak yg mke cm x ckop drh ni nme dye che mat..cehh..x r ting sbnye..daddy dye yg nme che mat..aq pggl cm 2 coz mke dye n daddy dye sbjk dong!..cam kmbr..hi9 dye ni dak plg pndai lam geng aq..pndaip kerek..mke cm suci..hi9..

dak gampunk ni nme dye sao..cucu aq..hi9..mnt gle n skull..aq pon mnt..hi9..otai r ..(cumil) gk...skuad elit..wao!!!..aq syg dye..syg r cucu aq..biase r..aq kn pnyyg..hi9..

dak gedix ni nme dye gieha a.k.a. prof papaya..but not anymore..she`s change to avata..hi99..cian dye..bnyk mslh sme cm aq..so xkn cian kt dye je..cian kt aq gk..ho9..dye pon da pndh..kampar..smoge epy d cne..ni9

bdk yg nga pgg baby cm bby siter ni una..dye ni cm pendiam..p ble ko terpgg pehe dye..mle la tgn dye bergerak prlhn2 ke mke korg,,skt ooo!!!!!...dpt pnmpr free..aq pnh kne..serik ooo.....so mulai ari 2 aq owez be hati2..hi9..nmpk je diam p sme kerek n aq..ish3..plk2..ho9

yg prasan macho ni lak abg aq..macho ke? hi8..korg r tentukan...dye ni sporting doe..dye ni sekepale n aq..hi9..sng nk kgsi2 secret..emm x tao da nk ckp pe..sndri describe la..

ini hmm no komen...x tao nk ckp pe...hak999

kiranya mereka tao

Andainye human tao

4 wht dirinye created

sure all time

he will berteleku meditation on his Khaliq

presumably a girl knows 2 who her heart 4

2 who has more right to the course she will present them

like diamonds,beautiful carvings selected

untouchig deck any creature

not touch even a glance of

only just 4 him

who had been made 4 her

4 the 1st time

sure she will be crowned

by the whole world

like a good fairy who faithful

waiting her lover

and that should

love u but u?

Did I even mean anything to you?

Or was I just a toy for you to subdue?

I dont know anymore the real me

When I look in the mirror I cant understand

what and who I see.

You've sent me back to the way I use to be

Cold hearted, bitter, and inside angry.

The blood from my wrists tell my story

I wanna die and be dead and buried.

My image of myself is incomplete, broken, and dead

Why is my blood all thats being shead?

I know I'm not perfect

Nothing but a burden for some lost soul to collect.

But you made me think different

But it was all a lie and every word you never meant.

But I will find someone better than you

And with that happiness there's nothing you can do.

Give me what I could never ask for

Give me back my heart untoar.

So I can give it to another who deserves what I have to give

A dead soul that desperatly wants to live.

reality

death,departure,walk away,walk out

should i or should i not pout

lovers and one-night stands

i have loved,lost and lived

how do i trust,how do i love again

i should move on,it`s all my past

but my pain remains,continues and last

this pain lingers in my heart,mind and soul

damn it-why is the worl so cold

how can i have faith in god and fmly

when people i love are taken from me

where can i find true and loyal love?

i`m sick of the lies,fights and revenge

hurt continuosly,hurt at a young age

how do i love again with all my rage

how do i get past all of this,show me a sign

so i can leave my sadness,pain and crying behind

143!!!!!

i dedicated this 2 somebody

BIAR KAN AQ MENANGIS..

sesungguhnye skt nye ati ble ksh yg d`hulorkn x d`smbot..

aq tao feeling x ley d`pkse..he3.

.aq pon bengong sgt...

perigi cri timbe..

p nk wt cne an..

first time ade feel cm ni..igt ke best..

rpenye aq yg tersekse..npe sme ni jd kt aq?..

aq x mnx nk jd cm ni..

aq sedey..xde spe phm prsaan aq..

hurmm...ade 2 org je yg phm mende ni..

ati aq ni mcm kne tusuk muncung ikan todak..

sakit ooo..

dye x feel lgsong kt aq...

npe wk2 aq bru nk rse cm ne org syg kte,jd cm ni...

mmg aq sedar spe diri aq..sedey!! 

aq redha..

skg dlm sesi menenangkan fkran..

hope dpt lpe pe yg t`jdi..

p siyez aq mmg x ley lpe dye..

nk wt cne an..

berserah pd yg maha esa...

dye yg btol2 phm...

hope DIA kbolkan request aq..

AMINN...

cuti2

smlm aq g lumot....jaoh doe..oleh disebabkn sme cti..so abh decided nk out larh...lalu utp...tekengkn ti@..miz her!!....including all nates....miz them..dok cne 2 dayz..mle2 g umh abg sham...mmg kteowg lgkh knn r...kak na wt laksa srwk!...emm...delicioso!!!!...it was first n last time i eat that kind of food...mmg r sdp p rmph nye x de kt smnnjong mlysia...just ade kt srwk je...kempunan...lakse dye cm bihun..kuah dye sedap!!! arhhhhhh...nk lg..after that g umh abg fitri..

WAO!!!!!!!! very suprise maaa....akim...abg fitri sme da bsa..dlu wk2 aq jpe deowg sme ketot2 ag.....hak9....skg sme daa bso..akim da f3...abg fitri pon da up 2 date..segak ckt..agk r...akim pon cme....ok r...nk kte x ok x r..p aq tgk abg fitri cm educated r...wao!!!!!..ahakssss....mke sci bkn men....tkowt doe aq nk tgo!!!!..p satu je yg aq tkowt ble dtg cni..nk tao mnde?

bnyk kcg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. mlu doe aq..hek9....kcg 2 mmg r comei..p bg pndngan aq menyermkn...taring dye!!!! kuku dye!!!! o maa god!!...nk dkt ptg daa...mkn mee....sdp!..

g telok senangin!!!!nk mndi!!!  bnyk plan aq...nk kutip krang...nk ktp yat2..bnyk doe yat2 aq jpe!!!...p sowy 2 say r...mti idop blk aq x pgg mende 2..

gli!!! cm lipas!!..lipas + ketam!!!=..=!!!!!!!!....+....+`...best r...then blk!!! da r 2...mlx\z nk cte  bebnyk.. daaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hampir terkantoi!

al-kisah,bermulelah cite..

pada tanggal nth r aq x igt....aq g ostel...from ari jumaat smpai ari ahad...mle2 aq cri2 msok coz tkowt pakcikdin nampak.After abis class teros aq join geng aq kt canteen....Then deowg bwk r aq msok ostel..p nsb pihak berkuase a.k.a. nonagon,khatijagon,putta` and pakcikdin. Fuh selamat..sjk saat 2 bermulelah kehidupan aq d asrama blk after setahun aq kuar ostel...mmg best dok ostel..

Jumaat 21/1/11

Deowg makan kt dining..p aq mkn kt dorm jew..makan maggie...sedap!...syukur..better r dari x de makanan..ble aq dok ostel aq dpt rse kelainan dok ostel nan dok umh..ble dok ostel aq rpt nan kwn2..p ble dok umh aq cm jao dari kwn2..p dok umh ke dok ostel ke..msg2 ade advantage and disadvantage..petang 2 sepatotnye bdk ostel turon prep..p deowg tertido coz letiyh sgt..lbey kurang kol 4.45 minit petang...dtg seorang wanita bertudung laboh.Aura2 kekejaman sda dtg!..``tok2!! bukak pin2 ni ye pelajar!`` ha nk tao x 2 sore spe? sore putta`!!! abs terkantoi bdk dorm b1 x tron prep..nsb aq sempat lari..klo x da lame kene ngonjang nan putta`.aq sempat nyorok kt belakang ampaian..selamat!..letih doe dok kat situ...sementare dengar dye membebel kt bdk2 b1..aq bce r doa agr putta` x nmpak aq...10 minit kemudian bru r putta` kuar...line clear! x sampai 5 minit t-bang dtg degan khabar yg x menyenangkan...form 5 kadet pggl! deowg pon dgn kelamnye pergi r meet form 5 kt blok A...tinggal r aq nan sella.

Beberape init kemudian,deowg pon balek..air mate yg jernih mengalir2 dari mate deorg yg suci itu...deowg kne mra atas sebab2 yg x munasabah..nth ape2! then..tibe r time 2 cry2...lps p`jmpaan 2 ting2 kne pggl coz nk jmpe cik mat...a few minutes later ting dtg...dye ngs..kteowg igt dye kne mrh nan cik mat coz hal2 yg_________....rpenye ting dpt twran mrsm...p x tao agi dye n pegi ke x...kteowg hrp dye x pegi coz kteowg syg ting! then dengan aq skli ngs...he9...feeling ckt time 2...ramai gak yg p`cye aq masok ostel balek...he8..kne tipu!

Sabtu 22/1/11

Pagi 2 lbey kurang kol 6.15 pagi aq cuak gle! mne x nye...putta` jerit from bwh..``bangon blok B! bukak lampu! siti aisyah ketua dorm b1 bangon!`` tetibe lak nme ciai kne sebot..putta` naek dorm...p aq smpat r nyorok kt blkg ampaian..tempat yg plg slamt 4 aq skg...then after solat aq nan ciai smbong tido balek..

ari ni aq bley r relex ckit coz ari cuti biasenye putta` x naek dorm sgt...

Malam...

Disebabkan petang 2 aq da tapau tido 4 mlm...so aq x r rse ngantok sgt...kteowg dpt berite yg sao kne pndh..mama dye swoh dye pndh gk..p nth la aq x ngs pon..x de feel..coz jumaat aq da byk ngs..p nsb r mama dye bg tempoh smpai bln 5..jd boley agi kteowg spend time 4 sao..bownk kot mlm 2...then senior nates ajk men baling seliper...so kteowg pon men...riuh kot..gempak gle..p game 2 x lme sgt...bdk bj vavi mengganggu..``woi,senyap r ckt..kteowg nk tido!``...lanx r..kteowg peduli ape...teowg tepok tgn kuat2 coz nk sktkn ati deowg..skema kot..deowg bkn ade training pon...bdk hoki x kesah asal bdk bj yg berie..geram!...

Ahad 23/1/11pagi

Pagi 2 bdk ostel ade rocoll..so aq terpakse r tggu kt dorm sowg2..klo aq ikot da lme aq arwah kne ngonjang nan putta`..lme kot aq tggu..nk tao x npe rocoll 2 lme sgt?....nates and senior kne mra kot nan putta` coz wt bising mlm smlm..aq rse serbe slh coz aq x kne mra pon nan putta` sdgkn aq pon wt bising smlm...p deowg fhm...ari 2 ayon ckp dye nk dtg ari ni...dkt2 kol 2 lbey ayon dtg...bwk kfc..

Tgh hari

Aq nk solat zohor kt dorm a2..tetibe putta` dtg...dye jln straight je dpn aq...aq da cuak...alin bg isyrt kt aq swoh aq lari..aq x phm coz aq x pakai spek wk2 2...then dgn blurnyew aq pon lari kuar dorm dgn telekong yg masih berbalut di bdnku...cewah!...dye tnye ayon..``awak dorm mne?`` ayon ckp..``sy dtg mlwt ckgu``...``awk tao x plwt x ley msok kwsn asrama?`` ayon pon anggok..then dye bla...

Petang...

Hujan dtg...kak kimie ajk nates men ujan...deowg pon men...tetibe rozek dtg...dgn gye ala2 model dye berjalan dgn pnoh gye...nsb bek r nates smpt lari g blok a..aq nan ayon x mndi coz kteowg nk balek umh..k.ida nan kak kimie x smpt lari..cian deowg..aq nan ayon terkantoi...rozek sergah kteowg...kteowg x smt nk lari..mcm2 r dye tnye..jenoh aq nk jwb..dye tnye spe yg mnd ujan td...aq ckp r x tao.. then dye mule r membebel..kte aq baking kwn r..mmg aq baking kwn pon...aq nk igtkn kowg ye...kwn plg pntg dlm hidop after family.....afer sesi soal jwb aq nan ayon cabot lari...aq teros lari g pondok jga coz tggu umi aq ambk..ayon g blok a..aq hrp nsb nates and senior baek..

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